The Dance of the Doubtful Doll

My painted smile tells of no bright lies.
I gather the dust as aspiring friends,
The strings are pulled; on my limbs there are ties
My rags are torn and in need of a mend.

Breathing life and tugging on the thin rope,
My cold wooden body will never fall.
For durations of time I feel some hope.
Proudly sings the dance of the doubtful doll.

I go limp as you lay me back to rest,
My tears molten my own fragile being.
This tarnished toy, this show, for which you jest,
Has more then a sad face, she has meaning.

Oh Lord! Why are we so blinded by sight?
Give this poor tarnished doll her strength to fight.

Frozen Solumn

Where’s the comfort in that beautiful face?
Far from my eyes and close to my dull heart,
Pounding at the gate to which I’m encased.
In search for the key, to what fell apart?

A smile that shames the brightest white pearl,
Is stuck on me, a cold frost bitten mass.
Reminding me: I’m not a frozen girl,
While I die through the solid frosted glass.

Courage and bravery shines through your eyes.
I look first to him and he looks to God.
You wont let me fall into the world’s lies.
He wont give up, he’ll break through my façade.

What a cold and murky solid column,
Don’t worry for me, I’m frozen solemn.

I am the Vine and you are the Branches

"Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You"

As i was doing my devotions today this song was playing in the back round. its casting crowns "may my life song sing for you"

it seemed to fit with the theme of my devotions (even though they didnt seem to relate at all...)
My devotions were on the Fruits of the spirit.

Love, joy, peace, patients kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. All nine of these must remain together, not one can be missing. this is how the song related...its hard to follow all of these and not devote every bit of your life to God. Giving your life to God, and obeying this list.

"fruit" is often describe in the bible as a persons spiritual walk with God. If someone is spiritually dead, they have rotten fruit.

"Either make the tree good and it;s fruit good, or make the tree bad and it's fruit bad, for the tree is known by its fruit." Mathew 12:33

"Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me." John 15:4

"Filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God" Philippians 1:11

So what kind of fruit have you been showing in your daily life?

Christmas in July

Last night i went to a Christmas Party =] on July 25. It was exciting. The house was decorated and Christmas music was blaring from the basement. We exchanged gifts and then the rest of the night contained the enjoyable humiliation of Glee Karaoke....This went to about 4 in the morning. no one really went to bed. i had Supermans hoodie and a santa clause hat that i took and somehow managed to fall asleep underneath the Christmas tree...

With all this to say it was a eventful evening.

we slept in til 12 and then i rushed home. i have to get to work. 32 coloring pages must be finished by august 1 for my job. so this artist is confined to her room. Drawing Away! Blogging and missing Superman....

which reminds me

i need to mail back his phone....

Home at Last

Well before i post part Two of that crazy story ill just post an update

i just stepped off of a plane. I was in MN for my sisters SECOND wedding reception and i am very glad to say...this wedding is finally over =]

while i was there i went to the overwhelming mall of America and began to read the hunger games...They inspired me in some ways but thats another story for another post...

I got home. Talked to Superman for a lil while and am heading off to bed. I see him hin two days =]

i must say i'm uneased by a few events in my life but dont care to acknowledge them.

How come i never do?

Goodnight, Sleep tight, dont let the Fruit Flies Bite

So just a quick post before me and my head ache go to sleep....

i came home from my insane vacation to a bunch of fruit flies all moved it. Their getting incredibly annoying...

i will be posting a MUST READ post tmrrw about my vacation...a week that included a surprise marrage, a few backhand slaps, a divorce, missing papers and a fire in the woods...along with fights and feelings...it was insane

and all because of a group of stupid teenagers...

Fireworks and Superman

I have a group of friends going to Philly tonight to see the fireworks. Here at sandycove philly is only 45 mins away, opposed to its normal 4 hours. i was invited to tagg along.

I love fireworks. their brilliant. along with music. and sandycove people. but i had a alternative reason for wanting to go.

I know superman will be there...

It's been a lil while since i have seen my hero, sadly it will be a lil while longer..

He said he would come visit my home this week, to meet the people i have called family once every year of my life...

tommorrow couldnt come soon enough...

Tie your Cape and fly here quickly...

The Cove of Sand (Home)

Ever step onto familiar land for the first time in a year and it feels like you never left?
Every year of my life i have stepped onto the soil of SandyCove and called it home.

for 17 years nothing has seemed to change.

Its like a family reunion...i have seen these same people every year, and every year its like i never left.

i have a few more days to be here, home. I went boating today, played guitar, and listen to a seminar on the fruits of the spirit. people here think i look like kesha...im ok with that i suppose ;]

A Double Date with Ben and Jerrys

It's getting pretty late in the day. I'm leaving tmrrw for SandyCove (a retreat center/camp). I havent packed yet but i'll get to that later...Always do...a lil to much, besides the point.

A close friend has been staying at my house the last few days and shes got herself a "never been done" List...me being the competitive lil person that i am is trying to check off as many items on the list as possible.

never painted toenails....CHECK

Never made a video....CHECK

owned sophies....CHECK


Traded Clothes with a friend...CHECK

and the last one we are able to check off is---

Gotten dressed up for the heck of it and gone out with friends....- that is the goal.

so the question is...what do two girls with nothing to do plan for a saterday night?

We are going to dress up. go to the grocery store. get Ben and Jerrys Icecream and then head to lorton station to look like we just got stood up....when really....were on a double date with Ben and Jerry. (bringing along our sketchbooks of course)

what about packing?

ill do that later...

Jesus, Pirates and Spray paint

Everyone has those days of utter laziness. Everyone attempts to journal the exciting moments but always end up writing on the days with nothing to do...does this make sense?

Doesn't really need to... I have artsy blogs. A tumblr and YouTube account, but I wanted to just write. To journal. So I'm aspiring to do so. To journal events on what it is to be me.

A artist, seeking to serve the Lord.

A actress in love with pirates

Supermans girlfriend

A accident prone teenager

A daughter and a sister to 5

And that girl whose always covered in paint....

A mess....